as a whole,

like how we started out,

is it really that difficult?

is it really that difficult to maintain how things were like in the past?

is it really that difficult to be how we used to be?

is it really that difficult to keep everyone together?

why do things always have to turn out the least i expect it to be when i thought it was getting better?

one really can't make everything right.
because even if you try,
no matter how hard,
eventually you'll just realise it's just beyond your means to do so,
to make everything right.
is it really impossible, or i'm just not trying hard enough?


times like having a awesome simple chat with my friends,
talking about anything under the sun/moon/stars,
seems so vague to me now.
perhaps even talking about how stupid the ants might be while we're chatting,
i'll be more than happy.
yet,
times like these,
it's almost vanished.

a hug,

a sense of comfort,
and something to make me smile.

now even elmo nor ice cream can cheer me up. ):