because it never fails to not make me realize of the truth that hurts, the facts i have to accept.
but i know i need more time than anything else.

it feels like everything's really not the same anymore, i tried, but it just can't seem to connect anymore. "It takes years for something to be built, yet it takes just a few seconds for it to be destroyed." How true, i can't deny.

certain things will only make matters worse. it totally emphasize on my decision even more. but i can't make myself to do it. why? I'm searching for that answer. i don't want to do something without a purpose because it'll totally lose it's meaning, it's mentally grueling the good and bad mind of mine are fighting against one another.

there's things i know i need to settle, there's no clues for me on how to get it started at all.
i don't know what to do, i'm still lost, i don't want to hurt anymore.
i need time, i really need it. but it's not going to wait for me.

"If crying can make everything go away forever, i don't mind crying. The thing is, even after crying is done, things are still the same."