i type a whole chunk, only to realise this picture above best says what i've been trying to put forth.

think of those hard and crucial times you guys shared with each other, isn't it all worthwhile?
doesn't that mean something? so why are things so screwed now? it's heart wrenching to see all these happening.

i think i'm such an idiot. seems like i care so much, worry so much, for nothing.
because ignorance and not caring are all i'm getting, seeing. i feel and look like a fool.
i wish i can choose not to care, cause ultimately i'm not exactly/really involved. i wish i wouldn't be so bothered by it. perhaps i should really make myself invisible to all problems, all matters. perhaps that's why "ignorance is sometimes a bliss" such sentence, exist. perhaps i would be happier off if i ignored and not think about it.
so why still?
because you're all my friends.
tell me why i won't be affected.


it's only the first week. and all these things are happening.
i saw/knew it coming,
just that i didn't know it would be so fast, now.