"Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means moving on. It is one of the hardest things a person can do. We are forced to actually realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be. And no matter how hard it is you have to fight yourself to do so."

I seriously need someone to help pull me through this period and i hope there is but i doubt so. It seems so screwed now. Right now i'm feeling like i've fell to rock bottom, again. I'm so mentally and physically tired but on the other hand, i still have to pretend that nothing had happened and keep hanging on. Just how much more longer can i withstand? Right now, its no longer like before. I don't know why. I wonder when will my life be as colourful as it is like before.


it's one of those nights, that i know there's so much within me i couldn't find anyone to tell to.